The State of American Catholicism . . . And Of Myself
Whatever else you do today -- and I would point out that Friday is a particularly good day for observing the Stations of the Cross -- be sure to read this essay by Russell Shaw at The Catholic World Report.
I am reminded of Prince Faisal's line in Lawrence of Arabia, "He treads heavily but he speaks the truth." The numbers that Mr. Shaw brings up are shocking, even for someone as pessimistic as me:
Since American Catholics are supposedly not only the most highly educated ever but are also loyal to the essentials of the faith, let's look at what these exemplary Catholics believe. American Catholics Today (Rowman & Littlefield, 2007), a book by Professor Davidson and three other sociologists, sheds light on that.A survey in 2005 found that 76 percent of the Catholics of the United States thought someone could be a good Catholic without going to church every Sunday. Other elements of Catholic belief and practice also fared poorly. Three out of four said good Catholics needn't observe the teaching on contraception; two-thirds said the same of having their marriages blessed by the Church and accepting the teaching on divorce and remarriage; 58 percent took the same view of giving time or money to the parish and also of following Church teaching on abortion. These numbers have gone up dramatically since Davidson and his colleagues began collecting them in 1987. And, by 2005, nearly one in four held that a good Catholic needn't believe that Jesus rose bodily from the dead.
In 2003, the researchers tested American Catholics' views on the Catholic Church and other religions. Some results: 86 percent agreed with the statement "If you believe in God, it doesn't really matter which religion you belong to"; 74 percent said yes to "The major world religions are equally good ways of finding ultimate truth"; and 52 percent accepted the proposition, "The Catholic religion has no more spiritual truth than other major religions."
In case you might be, like the American Catholics mentioned in the report, under any illusions as to what the Catechism actually teaches, I'll give you a shorthand version. A Catholic ought to believe:
1. Attendance at Mass on Sunday and Holy Days of obligation is mandatory.
2. Artificial contraception is sinful.
3. Catholics must have their weddings blessed by the church, and may only marry once, unless the spouse dies.
4. Catholics are obligated to support the Church.
5. Abortion is murder.
6. Jesus rose bodily from the dead.
7. All religions are not equal; only the Catholic Church contains 100% of the truth.
I will be the first to confess, at one time or another, to having doubted, questioned, or outright disbelieved all of these things.
Before about eighteen months or so ago, I probably would have yielded ground on any of them in an argument, to preserve peace, or to behave decorously in public.
No longer.
I look at the terrible slide into relativism and immorality of our culture, and I am convinced that it is my obligation to proclaim the word of Christ, and to embrace the teachings of the Church as His truth. I may elucidate and elaborate on any of these points; I may phrase things more politely and less tersely, but I will no longer hide my beliefs, because I am convinced that to do so is to cooperate in our cultural and moral decline.
I will embrace any name I am called gladly -- extremist, fanatic, reactionary, Ultramontanist, or, God forbid, Catholic.
And I will respond in kind, by calling my enemies apostates, heretics, pagans, immoralists, and depraved.
Actually, I will use those terms only sparingly. But occasionally people do need a slap in the face to restore them to their senses. American Catholics are among the first who need to be woken up. The Church is in trouble, and if you have nay love in your heart for her, you will take action.
More importantly, you will pray. Because if you act without praying first, your actions will most certainly be foolish ones.
I'll tell you what my project has been in the last eighteen months -- it has been to become a good Catholic.
And not a good Catholic in terms of how most Americans today might view the term "good Catholic." I was already that.
I mean a good Catholic in the sense that someone like Theresa of Avila or St. Francis of Assisi or St. Ignatious of Loyola, or St. Dominic Guzman, or St. Benedict of Nursia would recognize me as a good Catholic. I mean a good Catholic that would be recognized as such by any person raised in the last twenty centuries of the Church -- not the past twenty years, where "Catholic" has descended into being a term of derision like 'naif' or 'rube', or a brand name like Nike or Pepsi (for example, in the sense that Georgetown is a Catholic college.)
I haven't been extemely outgoing in my proselytization. I've hardly been fulfilling the Great Commission in any meaningful sense. I've mainly tried to reform my own moral life and enter into a meaningful amount of prayer with God. I've attended Mass every week for more than thirteen months and have not missed a Holy Day of Obligation. I have gone to confession regularly, averaging no less than once a month. I have tried to keep to the hard discipline of the Liturgy of the Hours and the daily rosary. I do a fair amount of Scripture reading and other Lectio Divina.
In other words, my course of reform has been aimed almost entirely inward.
And I'll tell you where I stand after putting all of these things in place.
I feel terrible.
I feel like the worst Catholic on the planet, and the worst reprobate on Earth. I finally have a sense of myself as what I truly am -- a base man, consumed by passions, a glutton, and a drunk. I have few kind words in my vocabulary and even fewer kind thoughts. I am slothful to the point of near immobility. I am ungenerous to the poor and unsympathetic to the suffering. I don't lift a finger to help the unborn. I'm short tempered, impatient, and envy the success of others.
That's the bad news.
The good news? I now know it.
It's a little like the rather crude joke about the old woman who goes to the doctor, complaining of a problem. "Doctor," she says, "I have terrible gas. All day long I feel myself breaking wind. But the good news is, I do it silently, and there is no smell whatsoever, otherwise I would die for shame. But I'm still concerned. Is there something you can give me?"
The doctor looks at the old woman sympathetially, takes out his pad, and writes her a prescription for some pills.
A week later, she's back to visit the doctor. "Doctor", she says, "This is terrible medicine. These pills don't work at all. I still am passing gas, except now, my farts smell absolutely terrible -- like rotten cabbage. Fortunately, they are still silent, so I can usually slip away without anyone attributing them to me. But please, Doctor, can you give me something else?"
Once again, the Doctor smiles at her sympathetically, and takes out his prescription pad.
"Certainly," he says. "Now that we've got your sinus problem cleared up, we can start work on your hearing."
OK, a crude, and admittedly, a somewhat cruel joke. Now you see how mean spirited I truly am. But my point is this. American Catholics regard themselves like the old lady in the joke. They have plenty of self-esteem, but they are blind to their flaws. All of us, without the grace bestowed on us by God, are blind to our flaws. The medicine, if we dare to take it, will make us feel far worse before it makes us feel better. Because the first thing God needs to get across to us is what we really are.
We're reprobates. Criminals. Murderers -- if not from the beginning, then certainly from early on.
When we read the Gospels and encounter Christ healing a leper, we're only understanding the surface if we read it and say "How kind of Christ to heal the leper." Because we are the lepers. If we read the Gospels and encounter Christ giving a blind man sight, we are only getting the surface if we say, "How kind of Jesus to give the man sight." Because we are the blind man -- and now that our sight is restored, we will probably have to find work. If we read the Gospels and we feel angry when the Pharisees object to Christ healing a lame man because he did so on the Sabbath, we need to understand -- we are both the lame man and the Pharisee -- we partake of God's grace, while all the while crtiicizing the way in which he gives it.
We all the while fail to see Christ, and fail to understand him. We are either confused Magi bringing him gifts for an earthly king, or Herod trying to kill the child who threatens his station. We are either John the Baptist, who even as Christ's Herald still questions who he is from prison, or Salome asking for the Baptist's head on a platter to suit our notions of family pride. We are either Peter, who, even though his faith is strong, still fears the waves more than he trusts the Lord, or we are Judas, gladly selling him for silver to suit our greed.
And we have no excuse. Most of us have known of Him from birth, many of us have been raised within walking distance of a Church. Even unbelievers have a Bible on their bookshelves, or have at least seen one in the nightstand of our hotel rooms.
And we see Him every day. He is the poor man who wanders the street whom we see every day. He is the man in prison whom we simply assume is guilty, and along with the crowd, we cheer when he takes up his cross. He is the child in the womb, whom Elizabeth and John the Baptist recognize even by his mere proximity, but we see only as a burden and a cost.
But we put out our eyes so that we may not see. We block up our ears so that we should not hear. We stop out tongues, lest we give Him a word of praise.
If you are a Catholic, try to be a good Catholic for a year. You will then see more like He sees. You will begin to see with the eyes of faith rather than with the eyes of men. I have only begun to have my own eyes opened. I see myself for something like what I truly am -- though even that is tempered by His mercy, for like the kindly Doctor in my joke, he has only revealed by condition to me in stages -- and while you think that it might leave me mortified, I am reassured by something far greater.
I see a little bit of what He might yet let me become.

